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Please Do Me a Favor

September 30th, 2007
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I have one of those statistic counter thingies installed on my blog which tracks the number of hits that occur over the course of the week.  It never ceases to amaze and befuddle me that I get so many hits in the course of a day from so many people from so many places.  I was even featured on ‘Best Gay Blogs’ a few times.  How they found me I have no idea.  I am both honored and humbled to see so many return visits to my rather uninspiring unremarkable little blog because I rarely think I have anything of value to say. 

Looking at my own blogroll and others that I read regularly, I can trace back as to how I found them – usually by scouring other blogrolls or comments left on other sites.  Such seemingly unmeaningful events lead me to discovering more and more and merely reinforce the idea that we really are deeply connected with each other.  That thought comforts me. 

So, here’s the part where I ask you all for a favor.  Even if you’ve never commented before, please tell me how you came across ‘Let Me Tell You . . .’ and how you found me.  I’d be very interested to know. 

Thanks! 

I Finally Found Jesus

September 29th, 2007

I posted this on my old blog which evaporated a while back.  I was reminded of this the other day when I stopped by the Church to spend some time with the Big Guy.  Hope you all don't mind the recycle. 

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Yesterday, I decided to visit the Church after work just to get some quiet time in with the Big Guy. I have problems with the Church, but not necessarily with God. So, I'm sitting there in the peacefulness of an empty sanctuary and I decide that maybe I might do a round of the Rosary. I happen to carry my rosary beads in my jacket because you just never know when the right moment might present itself. I find it calming, and God knows we need calming now-a-days.They are quite lovely indeed. They were given to me by a dear friend who visited Vatican City. The beads are a beautiful shade of blue and made of crystal, and each decade is punctuated by a silver medallion that portrays an image of a Roman Church. At the end is a replica of the crucifix that sits atop the former Pope's staff. I pull them out of my pocket and as I am trying to untangle them, I hear the tiniest "tinkle" by my feet. Fearing that I have lost a bead, I check the ring. (It just will not do to miss a bead - you loose your place!) 1,2,3,4,5 - OK, now the decades - 10, 20, 30, 40, 50 - fine - medals, crucifix - No, they're all there. We're cool. Just then, I notice that the Christ was missing from the cross which was still attached. "Oh Jesus, this just can't be good!", I thought. “Where'd you go?” I searched and searched and finally found him lying face up on the floor arms streatched out wide, sort of spread eagle with His knees bent. I carefully put him in my pocket.

Now, here's where all the questions arise. Are they still OK to use or have they lost their charm? I mean, you can't pray the Rosary with defective beads - will it still count? And how does one fix this? Mark suggested I use super glue - somehow it just doesn't seem respectful to glue Christ to the cross. I am in a quandary - but I still appreciate the irony of it all. I'm certain that some Baptist Preacher somewhere would really liked to have seen me in Church, on my hands and knees . . . . . .  searching for Jesus.

 

Nebuchadnezzar

September 22nd, 2007

Nebuchadnezzar, Daddy, and lil' Curtis.

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Ich liebe Dich immer

September 19th, 2007

Eunice died today. 

We’re taught not to get attached to our patients, because they will die and that day is inevitable.  

It’s not that easy.  When you set aside time from your schedule to visit with them.  When their eyes light up when you sit by their side.  When they tell you stories of their youth.  When they look forward to your visits – often you cross the forbidden line of provider to patient into friend to friend and despite all that you have been taught; you become a friend to them and more importantly they become a friend to you.  

As you watch them decline, it shreds at your soul.

When they still recognize but can’t acknowledge you, it rips at your heart. 

As they decline and don’t remember your name but still remember your face, it crushes your spirit. 

When they die, they take a bit of you with them.  They weren’t family.  The family was far away and forgetful.  They weren’t friends – well perhaps not in the technical determination.

What were they? 

I’m not certain, but she was a part of me.  She was part of my every day for more than five years.  I made time in my day to visit with her, and she, in her own way made time for me.

She has gone, and taken a very significant part of me with her.

So long Eunice.  I’ll miss you more than you will ever know. 

God bless sweetie, and “Ich liebe Dich immer”.

The Corn Man Cometh

September 17th, 2007
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For those that live in the big city, what I’m about to tell you will sound extremely backwoods and small town.  Heck, I’m small town and it seems backwoods to me!

As you know, harvest season has begun.  You all did know that didn’t you?  Well, it has and our little town of Hermann is busy, busy, busy.  The morning open air market is filled with delicious, locally grown produce. 

So, I’m sitting at my desk the other day reviewing some patient charts when over the PA I hear, “Your attention please.  [Insert local farmer’s name here] has his pick up parked in the rear lot and is selling fresh corn on the cob.  I repeat; the corn man is here so go to the rear parking lot if you want to buy some corn.” 

I was astonished.  First that they would announce something like that over the hospital PA, and second that a local farmer would actually come to the hospital to peddle his produce! 

What’s even funnier is that he sold out in a matter of minuets. 

I bought two bags! 

 

 

Change That Tune

September 16th, 2007

A winters day
In a deep and dark december;
I am alone,
Gazing from my window to the streets below
On a freshly fallen silent shroud of snow.
I am a rock,
I am an island.
Ive built walls,
A fortress deep and mighty,
That none may penetrate.
I have no need of friendship; friendship causes pain.
Its laughter and its loving I disdain.
I am a rock,
I am an island.

Dont talk of love,
But Ive heard the words before;
Its sleeping in my memory.
I wont disturb the slumber of feelings that have died.
If I never loved I never would have cried.
I am a rock,
I am an island.

I have my books
And my poetry to protect me;
I am shielded in my armor,
Hiding in my room, safe within my womb.
I touch no one and no one touches me.
I am a rock,
I am an island.

And a rock feels no pain;
And an island never cries.

– Paul Simon

Sage Advice

September 15th, 2007

At supper tonight, Mark says. " Did you know that it is impossible to lick your elbow"?

I said, "really"?

Mark says, "Yes.  Remember that.  You can make money.  In a bar.  With drunks."

Well there you are.

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Roots of My Garden

September 13th, 2007

Great granddad John was an avid gardener.  He had to be.  Raising six kids during the great depression certainly couldn’t have been easy.  In order to keep plenty of food on the table, granddad John kept an enormous family garden that was over an acre in addition to the regular crops.  Interestingly, he did this up until the year he died at the age of 97.

I don't have many good pictures of him, but here is my favorite.  This was taken a couple of years before he died.

Check out the homemade Birkenstock shoes! 

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Granddad John was a thin, fit man with the thickest head of white hair I’ve ever seen.  I am SO bummed that I didn’t get that one added to my gene pool!  He had a soft spoken Southern Ohio lilt in his voice and a particular scent that was very comforting to me.  Each summer, he grew peas, beans, carrots, a wide variety of onions, peppers, kohlrabi, potatoes, lots of herbs, cabbage . . . well, you name it, and he grew it.  His tomatoes were wonderful and many a summer supper consisted of corn, onions, cucumbers, tomatoes, bread and butter. 

Granddad John taught me lots of little secrets about gardening; how to tell a budding weed from a new shoot of a flower or vegetable, the value of compost, and so much more.  He always gardened organically realizing that pesticides and herbicides would end up in your in-sides.  He was certainly ahead of his time.  During the hot summer afternoons, we’d take a break from weeding or hoeing, and sit under a big oak tree growing at the edge of the garden and have some lunch and a nap.  It was here that granddad John would tell me stories about his boyhood, meeting my great grandmother, Hattie, and quiz me on my bible lessons.  He always had a kind word and wise advice for whatever little problem seemed to be bothering me, thus allowing me to ‘nip it in the bud’, as he was fond of saying. 

Granddad John taught me other lessons too.  Important lessons. 

His daughter Authorene, my gran, also had quite a green thumb.  She put out a garden each year as well, but living in the city meant that her garden was scaled back considerably.  However, every inch of her yard was filled with a wide variety of flowers.  Sometimes she would just throw the seeds with wild abandon and let them bloom wherever they decided to land.  My gran taught me many things as well.  With her, I learned how to put up garden bounty in Ball jars, how to make jam and jelly (yes, there is a difference), and how to bake.  A brilliant woman in her own right always felt inferior because she only finished the 9th grade.  I think in some ways she compensated by reading every single day – mostly her bible and gardening books. 

Over a glass of lemonade once, on the porch swing one summer when I was on a break from university, she confided in me that if she had ever had the chance to attend college, she would have liked to study botany.  That did not surprise me in the least and I’m certain that she would have done extremely well with a subject that fascinated her so much. 

It seems that with my mother, Carlene, the gardening bug skipped a generation, but she has been known to keep a flower bed maintained once I put it in for her.  The important life lessons continued with her, be kind, be loving, work hard, be honest. 

My grandparents and great grandparents are long gone now, but I would hope that their many, many wise lessons stick with me.  I hope that I am as good a man as my granddad John was.  I hope that I maintain even half of his integrity, wit, wisdom, and love of life.  I hope that I will always be as kind, loving, and nurturing as my gran and always keep her love of continued learning.  I hope that I will always make them proud of the man I’ve become. 

Once, when I was giving my mother a walking tour of my own garden, she told me that I was more and more like granddad John every day. 

I hope so. 

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You Say You Want a Renovation

September 12th, 2007

I've received a couple inquires about the renovations at the hospital.  This link will take you to a page from our website.

It's really looking good! So are the workmen!  Mmmm, mmm.  Blue collar eye candy.  I LOVE coming to work!

 

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Proverbs from the Farm

September 7th, 2007
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As a kid on the farm, I learned many things from my granddad’s wit and wisdom.  As I get older, I’m finding that he was a hell of a lot smarter than I ever realized.    It amazes me how the lessons I learned about farm life can often be applied to our day-to-day lives as well. 

1.  The cows will always need water.  When the temperature dipped below zero and ice formed over the ponds and drinking troughs, the cows still needed to drink water.  Bundled in layers of heavy clothing, my granddad was up before dawn to break the ice.  It wasn’t a very fun chore, but it had to be done.  It’s like that in life.  We all have those icy moments dealing with difficult situations or difficult people, so bundle up. 

2.  Never play in the grain bin.  Did you know that you can suffocate in a matter of seconds under the sheer weight of corn?  True.  Flowing corn is like quicksand and can trap a person in seconds leading to suffocation.  I apply this analogy to situations where I just shouldn’t get involved.  Some things are better left alone so stay out of it. 

3.  Don’t touch a fence without barbed wire on it.  The fences without barbs were all electrified.  I did touch a few in my day, both on purpose and by accident, and the experience is indeed hair raising.  I try to remember those fences when I act without thinking or do something that I know I really shouldn’t be doing.  When this happens, I deserve to be shocked. 

4.  Pigs will destroy a piece of land in a matter of days.  We only had pigs on the farm for a short period of time.  All they did was root, root, root.  I hated those pigs.  This can be said for a nasty or mean acquaintance.   A pig, if you will, can do a lot of damage in a short amount of time.  I suppose the lesson here is to avoid those nasty, mean people who come across your path. 

5.  Be nice to the parts man.  If I’ve been to the Landmark Farm Supply store once, I’ve been there a hundred times.  My granddad always joked that you should always be nice to the parts man because farmers will always need parts.  He didn’t waste time getting angry over prices or stock that was backordered and the parts man would always allow him to buy on credit without charging interest.  They had a cordial, established relationship. I try to apply this each day striving to be nice and polite to everyone with whom I interact.  Admittedly, it’s not always easy, but I do try. 

6.      A dozen is about 13 to 14 items.  Whether it is corn, or eggs, or whatever we might be selling at the local market, most country folks will throw in a couple extra just in case one might have been bad.  Face it.  Worms do get into the corn and sometimes an egg is rotten.  Better to be generous with people up front than create resentment later. 

7.      Finish your chores before you go and play.  Seems there’s always something that needs done on the farm.  Livestock need fed, barns need cleaned, fences need mending.  Keeping up with daily tasks may not be especially fun, but it’s better than letting things get out of your control.  Do your work first.  Do it well.  Then make some time for play.  You deserve it. 

8.      Always help out a neighbor who is in need.  Humans are social beings.  Some need lots of contact with others, some don’t need much at all, but there will always come a time when we need support from someone.  That support may be physical help or it might be emotional.  Sooner or later, we all need a friend or two.  I’ve noticed that the internet is a two edged sword in that regard.  In one way we seem to be more connected with a larger group of folks.  In other ways, however, we seem to become more and more isolated in spite of this connectivity.  I try to remember that behind every email I get, behind every comment, behind every IP address is a real person who has feelings and needs and therefore I try to treat them with respect and dignity and try to help out if I can.  It’s easy to ignore people in cyberspace, but that doesn’t mean it’s the right thing to do. 

9.      Eat a good breakfast.  And lunch, and supper too.  The saying goes, “you are what you eat”.  Well that is true.  Food becomes cells, tissues, and muscles.  Do you really want your building blocks to be chocked full of preservatives, artificial coloring, and chemical solutions?  Take a look at what you’re putting into your body and make good choices. 

10.      Say what you mean and do what you say.  One of the few things that cannot be retrieved once lost is your integrity.  I try very hard to always be truthful and honest when I deal with others.  I try also to stick by my word.  If I make you a promise, then I will stick by it.  It’s just the right thing to do.